Wednesday, April 01, 2009

A Hard Day


Today has been a difficult day. My dad called this morning to tell me that mom's scans came back showing rapid progression of her cancer. Her oncologist says she has somewhere between 2 weeks and 3 months to live.

We all knew this day was coming, but it is still a blow to face the imminent reality of it, especially after just being with her 4 days ago in California for a wonderful week together with her feeling relatively good.

All day today I kept thinking Maybe this is all a joke. April Fools! I wanted someone to walk up to me and tell me this is not real. That my mom is going to be fine and will be rocking her great grandbabies when she's old and wrinkled and her hair has grown back long and white.

But it is real. And tonight I'm unpacking my bag from California and packing a new one to take to Arkansas. I'll leave first thing in the morning and take Maggie with me. Maximus will stay with Lucas until they come out together next week.

If you'd like more details about what mom's doctor had to say today, you can read about it here from my dad.

13 comments:

Denise said...

Cherissa, I pray tonight for pain-free sleep for your mom and solid rest for your dad. They must be so tired.

The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18

I'm so sorry
Denise Knorr

Alison said...

Cherissa, I'm so sorry to hear this news; my heart hurts for you. I'm glad you can go be with your mom. You and your family are in my prayers.

cindy mclean said...

I am praying for you safety as you and Maggie come back home. My heart is so heavy as I read and reread the blog from last night. Please call me for anything,anytime when you are here.

The Hargett Family said...

Cherissa - Praying for you and your family. My heart is heavy for you and your family as you come together with your family. Praying for safe travels as you head "home". <><

Anonymous said...

Lifting up prayers for your family.

Renee Decker

Trish said...

Cherissa,
I read on the blog... I was going to post a note on your blog... but, I just couldn't make it sound right. Then, I couldn't find your email, so here it is instead. Go to your mom. Sit with her, talk to her, hold her hand... Tears are falling as I remember my own mother (20 years ago yesterday...yes, a cruel April Fool's joke)... And, as I think about what you're going to walk through... Don't feel obligated to write me back, but from one only daughter to another, if you need an ear, well...I have 2 good ones!
Trish

Anonymous said...

Our hearts go out to you guys. We're praying for God's peace and comfort. We love you all!

Nancy Jackson

Five Freddys said...

Oh Riss, my heart aches for you and your family. I'm praying His peace purveys this sad time and that His presence would surround you all and you would know and physically feel the support of Almighty God. Love you.

Kristi REDISKE said...

We are praying for you all-praying for peace and comfort. Love ya

Anonymous said...

Cherissa, I just now read all this news from the last few days. Your mom and dad are such troupers and lovebirds. I pray that her pain subsides and that you have sweet, precious time together. Call if you need/want anything from your
Friend Who Cares,
Mollie

the schilps said...

you know i am praying for you and your family, rissa. i LOVE LOVE LOVE you.
abbe

Ava said...

I'd love to keep your kids if you need help. Ava loves new friends! Seriously...let me know.

Praying for peace.

jkanglin2004@yahoo.com

Lisi said...

I am so sorry, and while all pain is personal and different, I can feel a part of it. I lost my father six years ago today. Praying for you.